HOLD ME TIGHT

found this song while scrolling around.......

B.E.A.U.T.I.F.UL

and then there's EYE NOSE LIPS from Taeyang

but then

this song slays

on repeat 24/7 for at least 3 months!!!

R.A.I.N

Heavy downpour.....

mindlessly standing on the grass

open arms

face looking at the dark sky

rain drops faster than the eyes blink

the cold wind senselessly blowing itself at the already drenched body

Lightning.......lighten up the night momentarily......

In mere seconds

Thunder..... body flinched at it commanding sound......

yet....

still.....

standing, eyes closed while enjoying every drops.....

smiling at how it brings such pure satisfaction & exhilaration....

 my poor attempt at calming my -next-week-is-already-pro3-exam-i-don't-remember/understand-shitloads-of-anything-yet-still-have-time-to-write-useless-thing-nerves

ME & MARRIAGE

People need to stop getting married already!!!!!! ITS STRESSING ME OUT!!!! *hairpullingmode*

I LOVE weddings!!! It's beautiful, lovers unites witnessed by their loved ones, happy moments, people get together, bonding time & etc....

It's just that when this friend, that friend, anak makcik tu, anak makcik nie, BBF ibu nye anak, BFF ayah nye anak & cousin yang naek pelamin, both my mom & dad immediately turns their undivided attentions towards ME!!!!

YES, they didn't say anything 4 months ago but N.O.W!!! urghhhh!! 

Come on.... kahwin tu bukan macam main masak2 time umur 3-4 tahun dulu. Many things need to be considered. You definitely need to be mentally & emotionally prepared. Sharing space & what not & you are not just married to that person, you're marrying his/her family as well. 

Well, news flash! I'm not ready to throw myself into that kind of sharing is caring & commitment s*** just yet!

I would like to have my own freedom doing whatever it is I want to do & not get tied to anything or anyone just yet.

Ill get the there when time comes, have babies & live happily forever after~~ -_-''

Though I did told my mom that one day I would like to adopt babies & gave up on the idea of marriage if I'm still single at the age of 30 y.o. Of course she didn't take it so well. 

Then I just come out with this instead

"10 tahun lagi ok ibu & ayah! tak lama tu, pejam celik pejam celik dah 10 tahun...."

"Ija jangan nak ngade2. USM tu punye besar tak kan xde kowt??" wan, maklang & ibu punye respond......

HELLO!!! USM nie besar??? puhleasseeee~~ Plus, ibu definitely rejecting  kelantanese so tak payah nak susah2 cari sebab 80% kelantanese kat sini :p

But then again, recently I just realized that my taste in men is definitely on the higher side. Bajet muke miss universe la kan....

I shall blame this on salvatorebrothers, winchesterbrothers, krissehunkyungsoo, T.O.P!!!! *coughcough*

simply cuz this song is sweet & beautiful & I'm hopelessly hopeless romantic.......

I'M OUT!!! 

COLD WAR

They said that when girls become BFF there is nothing in the world that could interfere with that bonds but once they start fighting WW 3 shall erupt!!!

so actually bende nie la yg jadi

but then instead of massive bombing with biological, chemical weapon & what not  at each other, we decided that a cold war would be better......

NO WAIT!!! erase that, she thought that a cold war would totally be awesome~~

Got no idea what going on but the talking just stop.....

I said fine, go ahead, couldn't care less......

But it was extremely awkward when we had to be in the same team

But I managed to pull off the whatever face & go on like we barely knew each other

They said we looked like a lover who had a bad break up & that I should go & talk to her

I said ain't my problem~~!!!

How long will these last????

Like I said, I couldn't care less~~~ *flips tudung*

FIRST DAY

As I was walking towards the elevator to head up to the 2nd floor -oh yes, I'm no athlete to climb up the stairs on my first day- I bumped into 2 very excited MO's talking about the new development in prostate related problems treatment. When they saw me coming, they start whispering... bajet top secret la tu.... tapi semangatnya bercakap x hilang, itu yang penting!! It was awkward to tell you the truth especially when the 3 of us went up using the same lift. Whisper2 pastu pandang aku.... I was like HELLO~~!!! I'm not some sort of secret agent yang nak pi bocorkan rahsia prostate tu.... minatpun tak! Nasib sampai tingkat 2 je.... sengal!

Then later when I went to radiology department, I approach this nice looking clerk asking about a doctor that I needed to see. Me being me, did not pay attention when the doctor introduced himself earlier in the morning was having difficulty in explaining how he looks.

"Oklah2, hensem ke tidak Dr. tu??"

"Oklah, manis je muke die, ade janggut ngan misai..."

"Ooooo.... Dr. X la tu... dia sorang je yang hensem kat department nie at least kat akak la~~"

"Bukan ko sorang, kat aku pun die hensem..." 

A-W-K-W-A-R-D~~

Sengih tak cukup gigi je la aku kat situ.....

After meeting Dr. Handsome, I went back to the room & sleep!!! 

TEEHEE

RIANG RIA RAYA

Dah 12 Syawal dah.... cepat je masa berlalu.... but 1 thing for sure, Raya tahun nie yang paling havoc & hectic dalam 24 tahun aq sambut Aidilfitri!! Tak cukup kaki, tangan, badan & kepala pergi dari satu tempat ke satu tempat. 

First day raya, unlike last2 year punye raya tak putus2 orang datang.... triple...... NO! quadraple daripada tahun-tahun sebelomnya. SERIOUS PENAT!!! I'm not the type of girl yang pergi dapur buat air hidang makanan dengan sukarela, tapi tahun memang pecah rekod la..... dari kul 10 sampai 5 petang aku kat dapur. waktu rehat time nak solat je. DENGAN SUKARELANYA!!!! '. I hate having to be in a crowded places, thus my mum said 

"It's okay, g la masuk bilik tu..."

Tapi datang la pulak mood sengal aku...

"xpe la Ija duk dapur tolong la"

"tahun depan boleh kahwin dah la"

Oh, yes!! ibu, mak lang & mak long are having their lovely time laughing at my grandma's statement. Terjun lombong wa cakap lu.... ha.ha.ha!!! So I should start sending out flyers for people out there untuk cepat masuk meminang, nak tengok meraung ke tidak wan ngan ibu~~ sheesh! Sensitif btol aq bab kahwin2x nie!! tunggu la 10 thn lagi..... =.=

2nd day of Syawal, dari bongek sampai seremban ronda..... walaupun duduk je half of the time, tapi perut ku nak pecah!!! Makan x ingat dunia..... Terbang melayang semua diet aq!! sabo je la.....

3rd Syawal, we went to Terengganu. Nak pi pinang anak dara orang. Nie lagi 1 aq x paham. Nak raya buat cara nak beraya, ni idak, time tu jugak la nak bertunang & kahwin bagai. Jam tau tak.......JAMMED!!! >.< Meroyan btol aq!! hahaha..... nasib ikut gua musang....pendek la cket jalan nak ke Besut. lagi 6 keta g ikut jalan pantai... Memang masak la... jalan 8a.m sampai 11 p.m. Memang rombongan cik kiah la org Kg. Batu nie g meminang sampai 7 keta. haha.... sampai kat pihak pompuan, org Besut punyela beradab.... cakap bunyi x bunyi je... senyum lebih, dah la org Kg. Batu terkial-kial nak control ayu & macho. Hehe.... jangan culture shock sudah bakal mak cek aq bile dah masuk Kg. Batu!!

4-6 Syawal, we're still in Terengganu sebab nak mengelak kesesakan lalu lintas & takut hilang rasa sabar di atas jalan raya!! :p

I LOVE YOU STUPID!

I love novels.... so very bloody damned much!!! tapi novel melayu je la yang love bloody damn much tu. Novel english die kureng cket. Ex: if I can finish the malay novels in one day, I'll take around 3 days to finish the english one~~ heheh

Anyhow, recently I read a novel from Melur Jelita titled I LOVE YOU, STUPID! I've read her previous work AWAK SUKA SAYA TAK? *sukasukasuka*. To me AWAK SUKA SAYA TAK? was beautifully written unlike other malay love novels but none of my friends think so -.-'' when  I asked why they answered 

"entah.... xsedap la" 

What the heck??!! but then again,  lain orang lain taste tapi masalahnye kat sini novel tu bestseller kowt!!! sheesh!

This time around she did it again with I LOVE YOU STUPID! Even better kowt!! love, sacrifice, humility, humor semua ada lah wa cakap lu.  

So, my friend said "eleh, novel len pun camtu gak" 

Agreed! tapi bukan semua, and the way she mold everything from the love story, the conflict to the lessons is simply captivating! The words, the sentences they're simple but melekat ketat2 dalam hatiku~~ & she said do not read her book if the readers are expecting over the top punye love story. I say what the ayam golek???! *o.k im craving for it. sue me!* Berkontena punya sweet okess??? Seriously, I can't read the book in public. People might just admit me to the PSY ward~~ senyum sorang2.... heee.....

Sebenarnya, masa tengok nama Melur jelita kat front page memang excited dah nak beli tapi bile tengok front cover die, rase excited turun 20%. Bile baca sinopsis jatuh lagi 40%. my first impression masa baca sinopsis, Ya, Allah apa gile punya gedik la budak perempuan neh~~ ayat yang dicaption untuk sinopsis tu pun alahaaaaiiiiii! geli! hahaha.. Orang macam I nie kalau terlebey gedik sangat ayatnye memang saje mintak penampaq habaq hang!

Tapi bile tengok patient kat ward duk baca novel tu siap rekemen segala, aku pun menyerah kalah. Bile dah habis baca, tersungkur menyembah bumi..... TIP TOP!!!

Part paling best mestilah Firman ngan Iris walaupun at first aku rase budak Iris terlebey gedik tapi Mr. firman sentiasa ada untuk menembak die dengan kata2 maut bagi pihak aku! ;p Tapi part yang sangat2 menarik time misi kemanusiaan ke Cambodia untuk membantu masyarakat Melayu Cham, post war, lack of education, poverty tapi diorang xpernah tinggalkan Islam, sentiasa di hati.... Menyayat hati.... 


Pengajaran paling besar untuk kita yang islam dekat Malaysia nie yang rata2 hidup mewah tapi tak pernah cukup! Nak pergi & rasa sendiri ape yang Iris rase!!

Melur Jelita tak pernah lupa nak include unsur2 islamiah dalam novel die..... bukan stail celup2, tapi in depth tapi tak la se in depth macam buku agama. She makes you think & learn something at the end of it.


hmmmmm.... so sekarang nak pi sambung babak kedua FIRMAN + IRIS  ----> MY PRECIOUS IRIS


Puan Melur Jelita...... tolonglah keluarkan novel baru sebelum saya habiskan MY PRECIOUS IRIS tu ye~~ hahaha

AYAH, GAMBAR & FB~~~

OK!!!!

My dad has been posting pictures after pictures after pictures in his FB acc!!!!

But that's not the main problem.

It becomes a problem when he adorably tag me & few hundreds of his friends *exaggeration* to every single "wonderful" photo!!!!

*SIGH*

Dari sapa la die dok belajaq post2 gambaq segala....?????

The other day when I went to "visit" his FB wall, I thought I accidently clicked on car seller's wall. Filled with picture of cars that he's currently thinking of buying...... & today he told me he bought himself a CRV!!

How wonderful.... hopefully the car pictures frenzy will stop ASAP!!!! 

& yes, I need to make him sign an agreement for not buying anymore cars as long as he's still breathing!! Mean, I know, but it needs to be done!!! He can go crazy for cars like how me & mum go crazy for clothing, shoes, bags & travelling!! Or maybe just me..... Sorry bu~~~

Now I know where I got my obsessions for certain things from!! 

Anyhow, I need to raid his FB wall & take down all the pictures as to stop him from tagging me with unnecessary picture!!

hehe kesian my dad dapat anak macam nie~~

HOUSE OF DOCTORS

Today, Spine team had a clinic session. 

80 patients!!!

Pengsan~~!!

But that's not why I'm being all rajin & nak bergosip kat sini.....

At around 11.30 a.m, when I'm all hypoglycemic, tummy starts rumbling, uninterested to intepret any lab results came in Dr. MNG with his son....

And of course for the first 5 minutes.....

"so, Izzati, what do you think of that guy?"

"Biasa je... Nothing interesting"

"Don't you think he's good looking"

"No...."

"He's not bad la kak Zati~~"

"Kan Aqma?? Not bad la.."

& then we listened to the story mory & what needs to be done & they left to do x-ray

"But you know what Simran? for a 28 years old, he looks really young compared to us..."

"That I got to agree!! 110%" I chirped in

Simran got all "offended" 

"I think, I look so much younger than he is ok.... so pleaseee~~" very diva like

We burst out laughing & Prof H just got to ask 

"Sorry,what's that??"

Kacau daun betul~~ hehe but he's cool about it though~~

When we thought that we'll be finishing the clinic, they came in again,  this time with the daughter.... & this is how the real story begin...

"Anak hang nie dah abes ka?"

"Abih dah... sambung terus kat Cork buat H.O"

" No. berapa nie?"

"No. 2.... yang nie No. 4 duk belajar kat Aukland. Nie balik buat elective dengan Prof W. yang abang nya M.O kat G.M"

"Ooooo.... baguih la.... Pi la cari bini kat budak ni...."

"Haha.... ingat nak mintak kat hang sorang, semua kawen pulak dah..."

"beranak dah...."

By that time I was like.... TERBAIK!!!! 1 family buat medicine!! Gila bapak boring!!! 

Ape diorang borak time breakfast, tea time, dinner & time cuti2 & santai????

Hospital???

Patient????

Management????

Investigations????

"So, son how's your day at work today??"

"Per usual, this patient bla bla bla that doctor bla bla bla the progress bla bla bla..."

Ok fine la... maybe aku je fikir macam tu sedangkan diorang happy2 je dapat kongsi benda yang sama every single day.... 

Maybe, diorang cakap jugak la pasal benda lain kan???

But still.....

I really do love how diversed my family talks are. Eletrik, tanah, minyak, polis, besi, kereta, matawang, jual beli, politics..... 

Because none of us chose to be in the same field, kick the same ball......

Tak cukup telinga nak dengar & it gets interesting with every conversations....

That's why, I told my mum that there's just no way she's gonna get a Dr. as a son in law.... NEVER!!

Tak thrill interesting langsung!!!

ooopppsssss~~~ haha!!!! mulut tak dak insurans sungguh~~!!

-TEEHEE-

WEDDING & THE HIGHLAND

IT'S WEDDING SEASON~~~!!!

Everybody's busy getting married..........

I'm busy stuffing myself with their nasi minyak!!! hahaha

Went to Bentong last last weekend for my group mate's W-day~~! Journey starts at around 7 p.m, sampai Bentong around 1 a.m after all the ups & downs driving at night.... Kekuatan iman sangat diperlukan.... hehehe~~~

Mengacau je tali khemah nie~~!! >.<

Tapi sebenarnya, wedding tu bukan agenda utama kami...

Fine la... ME!!!

The next destination after Bentong tu yang membuat ku melompat macam anak monyet~~ :p

C-A-M-E-R-O-N   H-I-G-H-L-A-N-D-S!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Actually baru je lagi jejakkan kaki kat CH, tapi sebab IZZATI suka bende yg sejuk, atas bukit, tengah hutan, scenary yang kebaboom sooooo..... hehehehe

5 of us stayed in a orang asli styled guest house.... on top of a hill + the road not taken style punya jalan.... kiri kanan hutan & tanah berselut!!  Very3x orang asli!!! Nasib bek keta tahan lasak macam tuan die ^_^.

At first we were contemplating on whether or not we should stay there.....

"Weh, kalau teruk sangat, tdo masjid je la......"

"btol3x, masjid 10x lagi selamat!! at least bile kite jerit org dengar, nie..... adoyai, buatnye tanah runtuh, xleh keluar kite!!"

"hmmmm... ok2, kalau kite je yang jadi guestnye, aq cari masjid untuk kita ber-5 okes~~"

But once we're up there~~

"oooo... banyak je keta~~"

"Woah!! rumah die~~~"

"We'll stay here. lagipun 1 night je....."

customer's satisfaction ---> 5 stars!!!

We arrived quite late in the evening with all the jams & what not.... so after solat we went out for food hunting!!! G pasar malam je la..... itupun jam... Nasib la keta auto kalau manual maun cramp kaki~~

Aqma thought that this place was actually kebun sayur & berkerut-kerut muka berfikir kenapa kebun sayur nak bukak malam2 *facepalm*

We went back to our chalet quite early *8.30 p.m* that's very early for me at least~~~ it is very usual for me to melepak2 sampai 12 midnight but since jalan nak masuk chalet dah ala2 cite horror, kelik la kito~~

Next morning after having our breakfast malaysian style *coughkedaimamakcough* we went to sambung makan dekat ladang strawberry la pulak~~

Sebenarnya, tak pernah pulak nak ambik gambar kat sini sebelom nie maybe sebab sayur die tak fully developed lagi time tu kowt :p  hehehe

1 full tray of strawberry based food!!! perutku memang sangat besar~~ ^.^

We spent 1 hour kat strawberry farm sampai habis idea nak posing terr~~

Next up, Kea Farm!!! shopping sakan budak2 nie~~ Me & Kak Siti dah jadi tourist guide F.O.C

"kat sini murah benda nie..."

"kat sini boleh beli t-shirt... banyak choice!!"

"madu lebah kedai nie murah dari kedai len~~"

Maybe lepas nie rancangan nak bukak syarikat pelancongan tu mmg akan jadi kenyataan!!!

Final destination before heading back home!!!!

The newly opened Cameron Lavender~~~!!!

Ibu would probably hyperventilate from seeing this many flowers....

Maklang would probably take 1000x picture at every nook & corners

Wan would probably be thinking of ways on how she can have the plants & bring it back home!!

OK!!!! I miss home~~~~~ Lambatnye nak cuti....... T.T

ASSALAMUALAIKUM!!!!

A LITTLE SOMETHING TO PONDER ABOUT

Read an entry from evelynn rose... who is she??? -a novelist- further info, g la kat blog die... jgn malas ye~~ ---> click here

Anyhow, it is something we as Malaysians need to think  & act & stop all the bullshit about the ongoing illegal demo & racism issues. 


"KALAU ada polis, kalau ada SB, kalau ada agen-agen daripada UMNO sekalipun, nama saya Adam Adli bin Abdul Halim, no kad pengenalan 890703075357, ambil butiran saya, buat laporan polis, kerana hari ini saya nak ajak semua yang ada di sini kita harus susun dan kita akan turun ke jalan raya untuk rampaskan kuasa, boleh atau tidak?, boleh atau tidak?, boleh atau tidak?" - Adam Adli.


Dah kene penjara 6 hari, nak berehat.... like those big build kid a.k.a bully you see in hollywood movies..... gertak cket gigil lutut!! Takdela semangat mana pun.... -.-''



We as the people of this country need to learn self control & mature thinking. Bukan tak dapat, demo, demo, demo!! The best part g ngadu kat OBAMA!!!! Ya ALLAH!!! kata kurang bijak kang marah~~ nak sangat ke rase Malysia nie jadi war zone???? 

Maybe, orang2 mcm nie kite kene hantar gi Middle East. Buat daily report tanya diorang best ke tidak hidup ketakutan dalam bayang2 sendiri. Dengar bunyi bom, peluru hari2. Darah sana sini......  

OK la... without further repekan...... g baca nuh!!!   fairy tales from evelyn rose: Should I Love You ?: 

LU PIKIRLA SENDIRI~~~