Oct 8, 2011

DAMN, DAMN, DAMN!!!!!

Spending 4 years in medical school never once I took a moment to think about responsibility. One way or another there'll always be someone helping me to go through every shitty things that come my way. Someone will always step up to take the responsibility, leaving me feel all "protected", not bothered about anything other than just to walk down the path that I have chose with no worries.


But after spending a month or so in the clinics and the wards, it got me thinking whether I'm prepared to shouldered the responsibility  for every action I took especially when it comes to my patients. The thought that their life depend on my decision as to how they should be treated/managed make me shuddered. Yes, there will be PIC that I can refer to but....... ya'll know.... *sigh*


Now, I'm technically feeling at loss.... did I make the right choice, should I stop here and start something else that doesn't need responsibility to be on the top 5 of its requirement list or should I just groom myself to be more responsible because obviously according to me, myself & I, to back off is the most silliest/damnest thing to do right now. I'll be too old to start everything all over again........


I HATE THIS FEELING!!!!


"Ya ALLAH, kuatkan lah hati & semangat hambamu ini....."



Sep 28, 2011

DARI MATA TURUN KE HATI 2.0

USM can't never run away from the term "Community Service"..... Jadi sebagai penutup OPHTAL POSTING, we have to organize our own community service eventhough the one that put that slot into our timetable was the coordinator..... 

Yes, I thought that we could just skip the programme since the coordinator can't find the suitable place for the programme but I just happened to have a very dedicated group member that offered his 'Kg. Angkat' for the community eye service thing. there goes my free WEDNESDAY afternoon....

But of course doing this community thing was actually very interesting. You meet a lot of people, thus forcing me to pretend as if I understood the loghat eventhough sometimes I don't. It was super funny. Terangguk-angguk kepala macam patung hiasan keta tu.....and of course they love giving you foods and if its possible habis semua pokok botak sebab nak beri kita buah2 kat pokok tu..hehehe....

But when there's to many people, we overused/strained our eyes to look into the small hole of the ophtalmoscope and into the fundus of many participant and ended up with


  1. headache
  2. photophobia
  3. hypoglycemic (?)
  4. exhaustion
  5. astigmatism
Got back around 3 and slept till 7......

In the next 3 weeks I suppose we're gonna have COMMUNITY EAR SERVICE.....-.-''


Sep 26, 2011

-.-''

YEAY~~~~~





 mood malas ku sudah datang menyerang!!!!!

 guess what...?

TOMORROW is my end of posting exam!!!!!




I AM!!!!! T.T



Sep 25, 2011

DARI MATA TURUN KE HATI

AMARAN : The content of this post have nothing to do with the title given~~


On the 11th, I started my 4th year with confusion. 

  1. Who on earth is my group member?
  2. Will I be able to fill in the ever so thick-full of requirements to pass the exam- log book?
  3. Am I able to pass my end of posting exam after spending only 3 weeks in Ophtal?
  4. Most importantly : CAN I FIT IN????

But here I am, on the 3rd week of my posting, surviving, thriving to finish the ridiculous log book, getting to know my group members that will obviously change in the next posting, studying for the end of posting exam on the coming Tuesday and still trying to find my place in this gruesome 4th year of MEDICAL SCHOOL!!!!

Still trying to master the art of opthalmoscope, answering every bullet like questions by the specialists, going for oncall, standing like a statue during every OT, etc.... My life has never been this great before *note the sarcasm*


5 months holiday has made me lazy and confused about everything medical......

Sep 6, 2011

SUKA, SAYANG & CINTA

Saat kamu MENYUKAI seseorang, kamu ingin memilikinya demi keegoanmu sendiri

Saat kamu MENYAYANGI seseorang, kamu ingin sekali membuatnya bahagia dan bukan untuk diri kamu

Saat kamu MENYINTAI seseorang, kamu akan melakukan apapun untuk kebahagiannya walaupun perlu mengorbankan jiwamu sendiri


Saat kamu MENYUKAI seseorang dan berada di sisinya maka kau akan bertanya "bolehkah aku menciumu?"

Saat kamu MENYAYANGI seseorang dan berada di sisinya maka kau akan bertanya "bolehkah aku memelukmu?"

Saat kamu MENYINTAI seseorang dan berada di sisinya maka kau akan memegang erat tangannya


SUKA adalah saat dia menangis dan kau berkata "sudahlah, jangan menangis"

SAYANG adalah saat dia menangis dan kau akan menangis bersamanya

CINTA adalah saat dia menangis dan kau membiarkan saja sambil berkata "mari kita selesaikan masalah ini bersama-sama"


SUKA adalah saat kau melihat dia dan berkata "di sangat cantik/tampan"

SAYANG adalah saat kau melihatnya menggunakan hatimu dan bukan matamu

CINTA adalah saat kau melihatnya dan berkata "dia merupakan anugerah terindah yang pernah Tuhan berikan padaku"


Pada saat orang yang kamu SUKA menyakitimu,kau akan marah & tidak mahu lagi berbicara dengannya

Pada saat orang yang kamu SAYANG menyakitimu, kau akan menangis untuknya

Pada saat orang yang kamu CINTA menyakitimu kau akan berkata "tidak mengapa, dia tidak tahu apa yang dilakukannya"


Pada saat kau SUKA padanya, kau akan MEMAKSANYA untuk menyukaimu

Pada saat kau SAYANG padanya, kau akan membiarkannya untuk MEMILIH

Pada saat kau CINTA padanya, kau akan MENANTINYA dengan setia


SUKA adalah kau menemaninya apabila ia menguntungkanmu

SAYANG adalah kau menemaninya apabila dia memerlukanmu

CINTA adalah kau menemaninya dalam apa jua keadaanmu


SUKA adalah hal yang menuntut
SAYANG adalah memberi & menerima
CINTA adalah memberi dengan rela


P/S: THE AFTER EFFECT OF TOO MANY CHEESY LOVE NOVELS DURING THE HOLIDAYS

CREDITS 2 BLOG JIWA JIWA

Sep 1, 2011

5 MONTHS EP 7 : EIDULFITRI

                               


This year, the theme was PINK! Even my grandma who thinks that she is too old to be all girly looking with PINK was inevitably wearing PINK!!! hehe...



It was supposed to be sesi bermaaf-maafan but then again it would be to normal to just bermaaf-maafan kan...??? and normal is never my family thing....

Well, nothing much happened on first day though. Ate a lot of good foods, drinks carbonated drink as if I'm immune from getting DIABETES, received duit raya and mind you, every year bertambah because i'm older and still studying!! muahahaha!!!!! 

Oh yeah, me and the other 3 not-so-old-aunties did some cam-whoring to fill our not so fun day *everybody else haven't arrived just yet* and make it a bombastic day!!!








   


And the climax was when Nasrah found the perfect backdrop to make the whole cam-whoring pictorial thing to a so called front cover style~~~





The pix chosen to be on the cover of KG BATU MAGZ
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that's just vain.......


During the 3rd day of eidulfitri......


When our family start berkonvoi untuk beraya from 1 house to another..... tuan rumah need to start preparing enough food because the kids come for the food and the duit raya and rest,.... tumpang 2 kaki lew.....





~SELAMAT HARI RAYE MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN~

Aug 23, 2011

A B C D E F G.........


A
– Available: Always will
– Age: 22 
– Animals: I don't like animals at all, full stop!

B
– Beer: Haram 
– Body Part on opposite sex:  Eyes
– Best feeling in the world: When I get what I want
– Best weather: Rain + windy
– Been in Love: Let see......
– Been on stage: Many times
– Believe in Magic: Thanks to Harry Potter & the gang, I   do
– Believe in Santa: Nope, don't think so....
– Brand: Changes with times...... for now, its JEEP!

C
– Candy: L.O.V.E 'em
– Color(s): Blue, Black, Pink, Black
– Chocolate/Vanilla: Chocolate
- Chinese/Indian/Italian: Italian, They have PIZZA!!
- Cake or pie: Depends
– Cheese: Love it

D 
– Day or Night: Night *not the super-creepy-dark night*
– Dancing in the rain: It feels really good!!!!

E 
– Eyes: Window to the soul
– Ever failed a class: sheeesh, who never???
– Enemies: Keeping them closer than ever...
– Exercise: I try not to....

F
– First thoughts waking up: Nothing
– Food: Love-hate realtionship

G 
– Greatest Fear: Allah
– Get along with your parents: Yes

H
– Hair Color: Guess.....??
– Happy: Always (?)
– Holiday: parap papapa I'm Lovin It

I
– Ice Cream: Any flavours except that tastes like antibiotics, ugh, disgusting!!

J
– Jewelry: Nice to have items
– Job: Still studying~~~

K
– Kids: Can't help but to love 'em
– Kickboxing or karate: Karate of course!
– Keep a journal: Yes

L
– Love: It gives you a very calming, soothing, dreamy etc....
– Laughed so hard you cried: Everytime I started to laugh

M
- Milk flavor: Original???
– Movies: The good ones. Recently: Super 8, HP7 pt.2 
               *what am gonna do without those wizards & withces*
– Motion sickness: No~~

N
– Number: 7

O
– One wish: I wish that my other wishes will come true!!! ^.^

P
– Perfect Pizza: Pizza that is perfectly cooked (?)
– Pepsi/Coke: To gassy/Taste weird
– Perfume/Cologne: Perfume

Q
– Quail:  I like it fried

R
– Reason to cry: Sad storyline, or when I'm irritated
– Reality T.V: Some are good the others are just plain bad....
– Radio Station: Fly/Hitz

S
– Song: Mainly k-pop and some english
– Shoe size: 7
– Salad Dressing: Hate salad so, no point talking 'bout the dressing
– Skinny dip: N.E.V.E.R
– Strawberries/Blueberries: Strawberry
–Sport: Squash,badminton,swimming and recently archery & horseback riding

T
– Tattoos: Painful & ugly!!
– Thunderstorms: Scary

U
– Unpredictable: The future & my emotions -teehee-

V
– Vacation spot(s): South Korea, Europe, Australia, Russia, Kazakhstan

W
– Weakness: Too many to be mentioned
– Who makes you laugh the most: Yoo Jae Suk!!
– Worst Weather: Hot & Humid

X
– X-Rays: Interesting

Y
-Year it is now: 2011

Z 
–Zoo animal: I think they should be transported back to the wilderness or at least give them bigger space to roam around...... those animal are going to suffers from depression and obesity I tell you!

Aug 13, 2011

5 MONTHS EP 6 : THE WEDDING BTS

I think this will be the 1st wedding in the family after 7 years...(?)... so, in my opinion it ought to be celebrated ''dengan suasana yang sangat meriah'' well it was celebrated dengan meriahnya within the family but between family and ..., (?) but I supposed it always happened when wedding is held....

Anyway, since it's Wedding a.k.a Happy moments, I shall only talk about all the fun and pushed the "makan hati" moments aside. I have been put in charge to settle everything that involved "buah tangan" that shall be given  to those who attends the wedding....

Kerjanya mudah je... tapi sakit tangan nak lipat beg kertas, lepas tu nak kene paketkan kuih baulu and most definitely, B-O-R-I-N-G!!! Mana taknye, nak kene prepare for 1000 attendees!! For the whole week, I devoted myself with the help from not so patience/loyal people to finish up the work and miraculously it did!!! *clapclap*

The best thing about weddings will always be the food..... not the caterer's food but lauk pauk yang gotong royong masak pakai kayu api!!! Sekarang nie susah la nak cari org2 bandar yang masak sendiri, semua pakai catering.....kerja senang, mudah dan menjimatkan masa serta tenaga!! But I prefer it the old ways.... potong bawang ramai2, kacau nenek/atuk yang suke melatah, lari sana lari sini dengan sepupu sepapat, berebut nak menolong..... Harmoni sungguh rasanya...!!!

But then again I'm 22 years-not so-old, thus kacau org, berlari ke hulu hilir and berebut nak menolong tu sangat la tak relevan!! Even if perangai still macam budak2 kena la act macam dah matured cket depan org tua barula pro beb..!! -.-''

And then there's the gathering of the awesome partners in every crime committed since the age of  4!!! Walaupun diorang nie semua pangkat pakcik but still perangai sebijik budak2 sekolah!! Tapi sebenarnye, umur takdela jauh beza pun. Yang tua skali pun umo 28, so standard la tu kan tak brape nak matang!!! FIY, the groom is also member of the group, well not anymore since he's M-A-R-R-I-E-D!!! His membership telah ditarik balik as of 3rd of July!! heee...... ;p

Believe it or not, I'm the only girl in the group.... Yes the family is lacking young generation females. There are.....*counting* fine, more than 10 girls not including those who are <13. -.- Its just that, I'm not close with them. Out of those many girls there are only 3 that I'm close with and we can gossip about everything & anything but we don't see each other as often as see my uncles... so that explain why I can be boyish sometimes or all the time, whatever you deemed as right... I don't care-eh-eh-eh-eh-ehh  ^.^

Cerita ni dah melalut!!

Ok, so the gathering, since I'm like the only girl there since the rest have not come yet, they sort of go easy on me besides there were to many people to help around the house I sort of slipped right through their eagle eyes... hehe... two days b4 the wedding together with the bride and the groom, we went to watch  Transformers 3D lepas tu balik pukul 1 a.m!! habis terbakar telinga pengantin dengar bebelan org2 veteran..hehe

The day before the wedding I spent with the girls dalam misi menyiapkan pelamin!! It was fun....semua topik bincang even politics. I think all 4 of us can end up being debators or speaker for parliament.....

All in all The wedding was a great success from my POV at least. I had fun, ate delicious food, got to meet all the people I haven't met since I'm stuck all the way in Kelantan, so yeah I'm Lovin It!!!!


5 MONTHS EP 5 : HARRY POTTER MADNESS

After 10 long years, the final installation of the world's best selling book "HARRY POTTER"-turned-movie has finally hit cinemas worldwide on the 14th of JULY. This has set people all over the world in frenzy/crazy/fanatic/etc mode trying to buy/booked their tickets as early as possible so that they can be the 1st one to watch it..... I remember my friends was telling me that the line to buy the ticket for the movie can easily be recorded in the MALAYSIAN BOOK OF RECORDS!!

Me on the other hands, thankfully got the ticket as easy as ...... not doing anything at all!! ;p

Uncle : Ija nak tengok HARRY POTTER tak??
Me    : Bile????
Uncle : 14/7, malam, nanti pak cek amik.3D tau!
Me    : OK!!!!


Yes you read it right people!!! FREE TICKETS, ON THE DAY OF ITS RELEASE, 3D!!!! What more can I asked??? N-o-t-h-i-n-g else~~~~ and wait, did I mention it was GSC GOLD CLASS seating!!! Comfortable as ever!!! Muahaha.......


Inhales..... Exhales......


yes, moving on with the story line.....

Since I'm no expert in criticizing movies in detail, this is more of my opinion on the movie....

Overall i think the movie was good.....comparable to the book except for the kissing scenes.... but then again, you can't expect every adjectives found in the books to be interpreted wonderfully in the movie right?? so ... yeah..., you know what I mean... And yes that is the only thing I regret plus the fact that draco malfoy's character was not as developed as I hope it would be.....it's dissapointing~~ T.T Seriously, this movie will be the last ever that I'm going to see my bias, why can't he be involved more....???  WAE.....!!!!!


-TEEHEE-