CLOUDS

WOW!!!! That's exactly what I thought when I 1st heard it.

The MV is very simple but the lyrics is very inspiring...... like that DEMI LOVATO song, the one she sang JB dude or like most of the SIMPLE PLAN songs. The kind that makes you think twice before surrendering your life to the life itself. Never back down even if people gives you shit *literally* and keep on moving with your head helds up high.

When asked about my favourite types of music, I can never really give a definite answer about a specific type of music maybe because I just <3 color="#ffcc00">motivational and inspiring lyrics accompanied by some good musics and of course beautiful voices and it can be from any genre.... I don't mind!!!!

To tell you the truth I was agitated while waiting for the song to be released on youtube by DUMBFOUNDEAD *he's genius with words* simply because JAY PARK was featured in the song but after repeating the song for 5 times I just realize there are more to life than JAY PARK * lolz*

Seriously, I have no idea who's DUMFOUNDEAD & CLARA C but right after listening to this song I have come to conclusion that I am stupid for not finding out about this 2 earlier.... *sigh* The CLARA girl, she got a very soothing voice, the kind that lullaby you to sleep... and JAY, I don't know.... He improved but sometimes his rapping is difficult to grasp by my poor ear. DUMBFOUNDEAD words was clear...... I supposed different people have different styles when spitting out their words of wisdom...... ANYWAY, thumbs up!!!!! Worth waiting!! ^o^

HERE IS CLOUDS by DFD ft. JAY PARK & CLARA C

AND A VERY HAPPY J-DAY!!!!!

EATING OUT 1

Amazingly, my PBL mates decided to say yes when I told them that we should eat out since we won't be seeing much of each other after our last PBL session on this THURSDAY!! I thought it would be difficult to convince them but I was totally wrong!!!

We'll be going to a place called 'FOOD VILLAGE' since everyone wanted to eat steamboat. It's a eat- till- your- tummy- burst kind of place. As for me I don't really know much about the place so let's just wait till I come back okie???? My friends are getting ready since we're going there at around 7.50. But most importantly is that I hope that the place is not full. I mean what kind of restaurant yang tak full ngan people right but eating dengan lautan manusia is not never the kind of dinner I imagine.

So yeah, Imma gonna go and pray and get ready for some food party!!!!

toddles!!!! ^^

APRIL

It's the 14th of April.......

No...

Nevermind!!! It's the 15th of April today....Seriously, I sucked at remembering date unless there is something worth remembering on the specific date. buat pe la nak menyemakkan kepala otak with things that doesn't mean anything to you..... RAM klu besar tak pe gak...

Anyway I supposed I just love APRIL because.....

1 . It's my B'day month!!! -10 APRIL 1989-

2 . I'm officially legal for my every action -21 lol-

3 . JAY, SICA, WOO's B'day month too!!!

4 . 22nd will be the long awaited 2PM single release date

5 . First announced that JAY will be coming back to Korea to film his first ever debut
movie HYPE NATION....

6 . The month I realized that I don't blame 2PM for the JAY fiasco and I'll still be supporting
them....

7 . I run out of reasons..... *lol* =_=

And yeah, JAY posted a new cover but I think the last one was better but for this 1 it was specially dedicated to his fans for being there for him......

So here's the cover... -CAN'T TAKE MY EYES OF YOU-

NOTHING ON YOU

OH MY FREAKING GOOOOOOOOOD!!!!!!!!!!!! THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE EVER *after getting into medical school*!!!!!!!

*clearing throat*

The most anticipated comeback *of the century I might add*!!!!! JAY PARK!!!!! woot! woot!. Yeah baby, you heard that right!!!! At araund 10 a.m waktu Malaysia he post his FIRST ever cover on B.O.B Nothing On You on his own YT account!!!!! how cool is that????? duuuhhh AWESOMELY COOL!!!!!

*COUGH COUGH*

I need to calm myself right now...... *breathe in & out* I'm just too ecstatic. I mean I have never expected him to make his comeback this early after all the ethical, morality craps but hey, there he is singing in the bathroom while sniffing & still thinking about his heartless bros * I think he did 2PM sign at 1.37*

without further a due, I present to you..... NOTHING ON YOU!!!!!!

*JAY self made rap*

i get approached a lot being who i am

and i gotta lot girls wishing i’m there man check it/

and if i’m wrong with ya i dont wanna be right

i gotcha gigglin like everydays a comedy night

i’m a correct answer never do you wrong

and i trust yah even though you’ve be gone/

but dont blame for getting little jealous/

its just hard when your talking to them fellaz

i got that “taylor” body girl you know that i gotcha/

you can call me new moon because i orbit around ya/

your my world my everything,

the only thing between our face is just that spaghetti string/

i’m faithful wont pull a kobe bryant on you/

its a jungle wont be “lion” pull a “tiger” on you

even know the exact shade of your eyes

my hearts ice your number one like yuna kim/

i used to be a boythat had many girls

all over the world

but they got nothing on you babe

its forever just you and me

for all of eternity/

i know your stressing but i’m confessing baby your the only girl i want

you can be my bestfriend we can play x-men

you can be just i can be cyclops

cause i dont wanna end up like everyone else

hurtin all alone all by myself

this is just something that i’ve never felt

RELATIONSHIP

People said that to turn love into hate is easier that to turn the hatred back into love...... well maybe it is true..... having to give your heart out to someone only to be betrayed in the end of the day is obviously not everyone's wish. It hurts to know that our pride can be thrown and stepped upon like some sort of cigaratte butt by someone we thought we knew.......

Heartbreak is the one situation that I would never want to experience even if I was given a cheque with a lot of zero on it.....I hate anything that got to do with sad love story. I hate complication. I want a simple, entertaining, yet a bittersweet sorts of relationship but NEVER a sad one. No, NEVER. I can't never accept someone who lied to me. That's a big no no...... I would most likely to let it go if you don't mean anything much to me *with some cursing* but once you earn my so-called-love you're DEAD!!!

I respect the relationship that I established with other human being so I expect the same from those human being. I want to 'preserved' the relationship I have till the day I die and make good memories of it thus, I would not appreciate it if someone wants to turn it into nightmare for me.

I'm not the kind of people who clicked instantly after exchanging a few words. I'll feel awkard if someone just simply start talking to me as if they know for years even with good intention. I take my time to build my trust in people. That's why I have a VERY small circle of friends. I don't care if you have a million of friends on your facebook, myspace, friendster and what not because I know, you don't know most of them. To me, it's a matter of taking your time to learn about those people who wants to be your friends even if at the end of the day you only managed to make 1 friend rather than making a million friend and know nothing about them.

P/S :

the phrase ' berkawan biar beribu bercinta biar kepada yang satu'. I never believe in that bull shit. Sama je bende tu.......Kalau kawan berjuta tapi satu pun tak leh pakai pun tak guna gak kan???? same cam bercinta gak, kalau yang 1 pun cam hampeh baik pasang berjuta tp menyenangkan hati or better yet cuci je mata tu dulu. Jangan awal sangat nak bagi komitmen!!!

LIVE YOUR LIFE TO THE FULLEST PEOPLE!!!!

a

BEBELAN

argghhhh!!!!!

Again with rasa tak puas hati........ cam tak kenal lak.......

I should be spending the time I'm writing this entry to find info traditional medicine but of course I rather spend it by membebel dalam blog ku ini......

You see, I thought it would be easy for me to find the info but hah!! takde langsung!! dalam Bahasa Malaysia that is. English melambak tapi takkan nak translate semuanye!!! Hangus neuron cell aku!!!

Anyway, nothing else to write..... saje nak menambah post sambil membuang masa sebab sakit hati tak jumpa ape yang ingin dicari.....Plus, Dr. said I have osteoarthritis. Kalau tak tau, go and google it yourself. Not in the mood nak jadi dictionary....... +_-

On a brighter note, my study mood finally came back from her vacation!!!!! woot! woot!!Hell yeah, she's back people & I hope she's staying for good!!! hahaha ^_^

Since I'm in the mood, I'm gonna post up some pix.......

kekeke.... random gile..... Neway, hopes he's doing fine!!!

SLIPPED AWAY

I MISS YOU
MISS YOU SO BAD
I DON'T FORGET YOU
OH... IT'S SO SAD

I HOPE U CAN HEAR ME
I REMEMBER IT CLEARLY
THE DAY YOU SLIPPED AWAY
WAS THE DAY I FOUND IT WON'T BE THE SAME

I DIN'T GET AROUND TO KISS YOU
GOODBYE ON THE HAND
I WISH YOU THAT I CAN SEE YOU AGAIN
I KNOW THAT I CAN'T

I HOPE YOU CAN HEAR ME
CAUSE I REMEBER IT CLEARLY
THE DAY YOU SLIPPED AWAY
WAS THE DAY I FOUND IT WON'T BE THE SAME

I HAD MY WAKE UP
WON'T YOU WAKE UP
I KEEP ASKING WHY
AND I CAN'T TAKE IT
IT WASN'T FAKE
IT HAPPENED YOU PASS BY

NOW YOU'RE GONE
NOW YOU'RE GONE
THERE YOU GO
THERE YOU GO
SOMEWHERE I CAN'T BRING YOU BACK

NOW YOU'RE GONE
NOW YOU'RE GONE
THER'RE YOU GO
THERE YOU GO
SOMEWHERE YOU'RE NOT COMING BACK

THE DAY YOU SLIPPED AWAY
WAS THE DAY I FOUND IT WON'T BE THE SAME

THE DAY YOU SLIPPED AWAY
WAS THE DAY I FOUND IT WON'T BE THE SAME

I MISS YOU

NEVER FORGET

February 27th 2010 was the coldest day in the history of fandom........ that day, 1 of the most amazing and talented young man was crushed to his bone... Remember PARK JAEBUM????

Yes HIM!! Actually I don't really give much thought about his withdrawal from 2PM and only hoping that the controversy would die soon and he'll come back to korea to become a better singer & dancer but boy was I wrong!!! on the 25th of February, his company announce that his withdrawal was permanent!! Meaning that no more him in 2PM but I don't really care about him not being in 2PM but more about him not able to achieve his dream to become a great singer, dancer & most importantly a son his family can be proud off!!

Since the internet wasn't working for me on that so called important date, I don't knOw the reason to why JAY doesn't want to come back. *But, even an elementary kids can figure out why!!* So that night, I just told myself that maybe being in Seattle for the 5+ months makes him realize that he's happier there that the 5+ years he spent in Korea. As a fan I can only pray for his happiness & hope that he'll do even better there and slept with that thought in mind.

To my horror, when I woke up the next morning and check the various KPOP website, the real reasons he withdrew from the team was because he did some "personal mistake" during Again&Again promotion!!! I mean come on!!! He was the busiest during that period!! Yet he managed to do that "personal unethical mistake" B***s*** And it seems the other 6 hated him for it & agree to his withdrawal.

But things only got uglier from there. The fans were angered with the company & the rest of the boys and the climax was on the 27th of February when the "conference of the year" was held by the company in order to answer all the fan's confusion about the matter but things got blow out of proportion with people pointing fingers at each other.

" Why don't the company try to protect Jaebum when his myspace controversy broke out"

" I don't see the fans protecting him either..."

With that said, the other six suffer. From that day onwards many fan account and ugly pictures of the 5 boys excluding Khun have been circulating the internet saying that the boys originally hated JAY & treated him like trash and etc.... With the proof and all, its hard for me not to believe it. Some even said that they ignore Khun. And without realizing it, I hated the 5PM. But hating, is never my nature *cough cough* thus I decided to ignore everything from 2PM till my heart heals, till my mind figure out the truth but till then I'm JAY's personal fan.

*But what I want to say here is that, how can a person give so much pain to another person without feeling any remorse. JYP keep on playing with JAY'S silence, play him like a puppet when he's the one giving income to the company. Why must they hurt his pride spreading rumours that he slept with a minor, taking drugs and what not. I was never JAY bias but even a non fan cansee that somehow, he's naive. Maybe that's why JYP took advantage of it. Or maybe JAY is 1 hell of a good actor but I doubt it.*

RIP 2PM

AUGUST 4TH 2008 - FEBRUARY 27TH 2010

ONCE A UPON A TIME

A journey to a new place is amazing. Going for sight seeing, taking a different road, blasting music from the speakers, talking about everything & laughing at every other things are most enjoyable list to do if you are on a trip. But not having a car that break down at the middle of the trip twice. That's a BIG no no!!!!!

You see, 4 people ( me, IDA, SU & DAL) went on a trip of our life so to speak on the 6/2/2010 which is yesterday. At first I thought of not going cuz of my runny nose -I hate doing anything when I have 7 L of mucus in my nose- but of course being the kaki jalan that I am, I tag along. We brought along all the stuff needed for picnic then off we go to Hutan Lipur Bukit Baka, MACHANG.

It was a smooth drive, thanks to IDA coz if I were to drive, people will be hanging for their life -coz my mum said so- But I think my driving is decent enough. 100km/h is okay right??? So......we went to pick up another friend, Nisa, as our tour guide. Well, she lives in MACHANG so she should know MACHANG better than any of us right? Common sense people.... *lol*

When we got there, we did our usual things..... took pictures .....eat....... playing with the water......throwing stones *lol* Its pretty normal sorts of picnic. nothing extra. Just a fun filled morning. When the sun was right above us, we end our exciting, wet, and chilling day in MACHANG. Nisa was sent back to where she belongs which is her house and we even got to eat lunch FOC!!!!! hehehe.... making me miss home more than ever....... super delicious!!

When we were about to go to our next destination that's when all the drama begins...... The stupid rented car just stop breathing, and went into venticular fibrilation mode...... Nisa's dad gave the annoying car CPR & some IV fluid!!!! After 1 hour it stabilize and we decided to consider it as an outpatient. -dramatic much????- +_+

We went to PASAR SITI, KB MALL & TURSAB when it decided to fail us again!!!!! vabsgv%$^###vasgdhg CAR!!!!!!! we waited for 1 hour for the owner and his friends to come and gave the car a breath of life!!! In the end we were given another car & RM14 for fuel!!! one word, speechless!!!!! =_= We cont. our journey and went back to USM at around 11 p.m.

As to conclude, It was a fun trip in the beginning and sucks at the end but we managed to overcome it with our "patience and easy going nature" =_=. And , oh yeah...1 more thing, I tend to shop without thinking twice when I'm angry....^_^ and again a fever as a consolation prize for me....

KNEE.....MED....OVERSLEPT

G.R.E.A.T!!! I miss my clinical teaching class today!!!! =_=. That's the only time whereby I can learn how to do PE and not just some bodoh2 PE but the right way of doing it but I missed it because I overslept!!!! Now, camne boleh teroverslept?????
1. I came back from the lecture hall at around 12.oo
2. I ate my lunch
3. I took my med for knee pain *it swells!!! T_T*
4. I stare blankly at the laptop screen while waiting for Zuhur
The next thing I know, it was 2.17 p.m and guess what I'm still on the bed!!! And the class is at 2.00 p.m. How the hell did I drag myself to bed?? I'm still trying to figure it out myself. Was the medication to be blame??? I don't remember about sleepiness being 1 of NSAIDs many adverse effect. Headache, confusion yes but not sleepy. Or, confusion goes under sleepy???? Well at least in my situation since I can't recall how did I got on the bed . But whatever it is....
I MISS MY CLINICAL CLASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's not that I never miss the class before, it's just that, Musculoskeletal's PE is confusing.....!!! And not to mentioned a lot!! Gah....!!!! Nevermind, I have 2 more weeks for this block. If it was not meant for this week there always next week and the next next week!! *Comforting myself*

ON 2nd THOUGHT.....

I'll go hunt SU or AIR down!! ^0^!!

I

I'm bored.....

I have no idea what to do..........

I've browsed through FACEBOOK for 7 times today...........

I've become a fan of JUNG JESSICA of SNSD..........

I've read all the rumours regarding JAEBEOM's return to 2PM...........

I'm still downloading 2AM new album............

I've finished watching AADBSK season 3.........

I go back and forth to 2ONEDAY to make sure I don't miss anything about 2PM & 2AM.......

I think I've done everything except for...............

STUDYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm gonna cry now........ what the hell happen to my mood?????? My brain doesn't seem to accept the fact that right now I need to study and not lurking around any websites coz obviously exam Qs bukan daripada tempat2 tu!!!!! ARGHHHH!!!!!

Nevermind!!!!

Just need to try harder..... I even thought of taking a break for 1 whole year but that obviously would not solve anything. Maybe I should seek some professionals help...... I sound as if I'm having a mental problems pulak....

hmmmmm......

Enough rambling......let's start with..... STD.....

ANYOUNG!!! >_<

TICKET, THEATER, HUNGRY, FEVER &.....

Yesterday, I have MAS and I'm the ticket counter girl. Since I love anything that got to do with money, I happily said yes. *lol*.

Moving on

Before the event starts, we had a so called rehearsal. You might be wondering why on earth a ticketing people need to rehearse their part?? People ask for ticket, you give them the ticket and take the money right?? Memang tak masuk akal pun! We start rehearsing at 5 and end it around 7.30 pm and guess what, the ticketing people = me need to be at DEWAN UTAMA at 8 pm sharp!!!! How am I suppose to be there at 8 when I need to go all the way back to NURANI that takes 5 minutes, pray and what not and then come back to DEWAN UTAMA??? Miraculously I made it!!! And it was 5 minutes early!!! *clap clap*

As usual, mesti ade something yang kureng in every event right???? Same goes here.... kate start pukul 8 tapi pukul 8.10 pun pintu tak bukak lagi... haish....... suddenly me and AIR jadi macam bos besar!! Kol orang sane, kol orang sini tanye kenape pintu tak bukak.... hihi....At last pukul 8.17 pm baru lah terbukak pintu tu....

Now, the bigger problem!! ticket bersepah tempat duduk tak de!!! Yang paling teruk tu, ade IPTA yang kononnye dah kasi feedback saying that they will come, didn't exactly have their ticket booked on the first place!!!! Instead of sitting leisurely eating snacks while watching the theater, they have to stand up and do it!!! Memang kesian, tapi nak buat camne, nasib badan!!!

When all the things settle, I thought of going inside to watch the theater but since there's no one wants to be at the counter I willingly gave up the thought of enjoying the moment I step into the hall to watch my first ever THEATER!! *sob sob* Maybe its because I was too hungry to even think about anything else. I just realize that I haven't touch any real food for 2 freakin days!!! I was so hungry to a point where I could just eat anything expensive without thinking twice because I always do!! Kenny Rogers would have been good if only they have it in KUBANG KERIAN!!!

I only ended up eating pau that taste somewhat weird and roti gardenia which was given to me by my ever so thoughtful PBL leader!!! *standing ovation*

Finally, the night ends at around 12.15 am after several times of counting the amount of money we managed to collect from the event and me coming down with a high fever. I thought I was gonna have brain damaged or something. 39 degree Celsius!! Its amazing that it actually gone down within 12 hours.....

waaa.... I wanna eat KENNY ROGERS!!!!

PEJAMKAN MATA.....DALAMINYA.....

Terdengar bisikan mesra

Kalimah keramat bermentera

Bermulanya siang berakhir malamku

Tak akan ku jemu menyebut namamu

Tiada batasan waktu

Tiada tempat mu tertentu

Di gunung di lembah di darat di air

Siapa pun hamba keikhlasan doa keagungan kasih

Merubah takdir

Bila ku sedari diri disayangi

Langkah kaki ini semakin berani

Bila terkeliru ku ucap namamu

Terasa diriku kembali dipandu

Engkau yang pertama

Tiada akhirnya

Aku dalam kegelapan

Engkaulah cahaya

Izinkanlah aku menumpang di sini

Dibawah naungan kasih dan sayang mu

Ku berserah diri

MALAYSIANS vs MALAY vs CHINESE vs INDIAN

What do MALAYSIANS understand about the 1 MALAYSIA concept????

Do MALAYSIANS practiced this concept in their daily life????

Well to be frank, I DON'T THINK SO!!!!! I'm a peace-harmony-loving type of person. So I can say that I'm very very thankful to be living on this land called MALAYSIA. I'm glad that one day, mini me will be born and raised in this country. I'M PROUD TO BE A MALAYSIAN!!!!

Coming back to our topic. So do MALAYSIANS fully understood what does it mean to be a MALAYSIANS????. Lets review back what had happen for the past 53 years of our independence....

16 MEI 1969

I think non of our grandparents , aunts, uncles and parents would want to remember that incident. I heard stories from my grandma and my dad but never thought it was that TERRIBLE until I read it myself in several article. Cina & melayu berbunuhan sesama sendiri hanya kerana keegoan ramai yang mati katak!!! So what if the Chinese won for the election? Do they need to looked down on the Malays? Don't they shared the same land?? They drank from the same water sources and the same food suppliers and they're killing each other without mercy whatsoever!!!! 1 word, BARBARIC!!!

Mac 2001

The same thing repeat itself this involving the Malays and the Indian. Angin takde, ribut takde tibe - tibe yang MELAYU pergi serang yang INDIA. APA KES????

Januari 2010

Baru je masuk tahun baru, ingatkan adela angin perubahan alih - alih cerita yang same. This time involving the muslims & the christians. It started off with the usage of the word ALLAH by the christian was approved by the judge. The muslims are enraged with this decisions saying that the word ALLAH is holy for the muslims and how can it be used by other religion???? Fine! point taken but it doesn't mean you can go and burnt their churches!!!! Imagine if our mosque got tear and burn down??? I mean come on, every religion have their own sacred place and we should respect it like how we want our holy places to be respected by others right???!! Its common sense. Even a 5 years old can understand that.

I'm not pointing any fingers at anyone about the church incident because even the authority still can't find the culprit behind all this eventhough it has been for a week now and 4 churches had been burnt down!!! Seriously, does it take that long to find the clue??? I thought PDRM is the best or so they say. My friends are saying that the police are taking things lightly because

' Bukan orang melayu yang kene'

' What do they care?? Malays have always been like that. If we were to do anything to them they get all worked up for no reason. baru usik sikit nak bising'

As a Malay myself, it got me thinking, Are the Malays always act this way??? I'm confused because I'm always surrounded by multiracial friends. Do they think of me that way too??? You know what I'm not!! If I think that its wrong then its wrong even if it was done by my Malay friends. To me, if you live in MALAYSIA, then you're a MALAYSIAN and not Malay, Chinese, Indian, Sikh and what not.

Why is it that people living in INDONESIA boleh hidup sebagai INDONESIANS and not divided by races??? Why can't we be more like them. We are obviously are at the upper hand. We are doing quite well economically. We're not lacking anything. So why do we act like a barbaric when sensitive issues come out. Yes, we have to agree that Malaysia once belong to the Malays and the Chinese & Indians are the immigrant but we've been living together for a long time, so why can't we developed a good relationship among us. Establised the trust, respect, love and wilingness and at the end we can live happily ever after under 1 roof.

So, now do you think that Malaysians understood the ONE MALAYSIA Concept yang tersangatlah heboh diperkatekan sampai nak tergigit lidah tu?????


LU PIKIRLA SENDIRI!!!

HOLIDAY.....OVER.....STUDY.....

Holidays are over and yet i'm still clucthing to those holiday excitement/euphoria/madness and what not!!! but of course no matter how hard i tried to hold on to those moment sampai patah jari and terseliuh tangan pun, it is still gone with the wind... hmpf....

Nonetheless, those 10 short days did bring some happiness that had long gone. The dead heart are once again filled with happy colours. The laughter that had died is planted once again.......hmmmmm merepek giler

Moving on......

During those 10 days I spent happily with my family yang dah bertahun tak jumpa, my friends yang dah bercentury tak nampak..... Wet myself with Sunway lagoon's dirty water, wandering around trying to figure out which public transport to ride on, doing 2PM flash mob while waiting for the train and last but not least, shop and eat till I drop!!!! heaven I'm telling you!!!

But its all over now...... need to switch back to study mood.......=_=......TT_TT