THE ROAD NOT TAKEN

I think I'm lost........ in these path, road ~or whatever you might called it~ that I have chosen...... I'm not enjoying any moment I spent walking down this road. The sunlight might shines through but it is not as sunny as I thought.............

I think I should have chosen the road not taken. It might be messy, complicated but right now it seems endearing to me compared to the calm, promising road I took........

Am I regretting my decision???? You can say so...... but come to think of it, regret is my middle name and I'm not proud of it. Been trying to but can't seem to escape from regretting any decisions I made........

It's either I regret not making the choice or for making the choice...... STUPID really!!!! But I kept repeating the same thing....... and I'm tired....... I want it all to end.....

Right now, I wish I was somewhere else. I wish I have a free backstage pass to any concert in any part of the world. I wish I was swimming in an open sea, taking photos of natures at it's best. I wish I was on a plane taking trip to all over the world, seeing things I've never seen before or as simple sitting on a bench at any park while watching people passing by while listening to my favourite songs.........

But of course, wishes will remain as it is if I don't do anything...... But to be able to dream is good enough for me seeing where I'm stuck at right now..........

Maybe I should've just took the other road...... better late than never right???? It is still open, waiting for my feet to make it's first step.......... But I'm scared that I'll make the wrong once again. I'm scared that there will be no more turning back for me and I'm lost while finding the way out........

CLINICALLY BORED

Ok I'm bored!!!!! Muskuloskeletal block is sooo not helping me in getting rid of the boredom.......

exam is on MONDAY. I have 1 more block to finish. But I'm soooo not ecstatic about it. I should be right??????

My leg is hurting macam gile since CFCS but It's not like I can go and tell my parents. Kang tak pasal2 diorang terbang datang. Tak ke naya?????

Baju tak kemas lagi. 28 MAY dah nak balik. haisshhh!!!! pekenela ko nie makcik. Hidup tunggang langgang.......*breath in and out........*

ARE YOU BORED????? THEN THROW YOURSELF IN TO SOME WORKS YOU BELIEVE IN WITH ALL YOUR HEART, LIVE FOR IT, DIE FOR IT, AND YOU WILL FIND THE HAPPINESS THAT YOU THOUGHT COULD NEVER BE YOURS........

LOVE this quotes..... dah try buat but still my brain doesn't seem to be accepting my effort to study for the exam....... frustrated gile *puff*

And finally..... I seriously hope my leg will be okay by the time for my next appointment with the NICE DR........ I sure don't want any INTRAARTICULAR INJECTION!!!!!!! I swear I won't get involved in any adventurous, sport or anything that could jeopardise my leg anymore..........T.T

MAGHI KITO KECEK KELATE......1

FINALLY, The ever so TIRING, STRESSING, FUN FILLED JOURNEY in Kg. Kedai Che Piah has finally come to an end. & believe it or not I think Imma gonna miss it!!!! I never knew I'm going to miss walking under the hot scorching sun labelling houses & asking the same stupid questions like a ROBOT!!!

I've started to miss talking to all the villagers especially the nenek2. They have many things to share from their early life. Even bende yang tak payah cite pun diorang nak cite. Being a penyebok that I am, I like listening to these stories..... or even worse, tanya soalan laen nenek2 nie jawab laen. Kadang2 kene tanya 2 3 kali baru dapat jawapan. But that's fun for me seeing them answering questions as honest as they can eventhough sometimes jauh tersasar. Not like the people nowadays,

honesty campak dalam tong sampah.

Dalam banyak2 rumah yang group B pergi, I <3 house number C26 the most. Y????? Because I had to interview the nenek alone, asking 4 pages long questions squishing all my courage and my limited knowledge on bahaso kelate and I DID IT!!!! Teror tak????? bunyi siam pun siam la.... asalkan nenek tu paham ape yang aku nak kate......

But seriously, never again I'm going off alone nak menginterview orang without the help from my kelantenese PBL mate!!! especially ke rumah those yang dah agak berumur. I even find myself talking in dialek kelantan as ridiculous!!!! Pelik gile!! Kadang2 rase cam bahasa utara pun kuar gak but hey, that's a good improvement rite daripada tak nak try langsungkan2???? *proud*

time tu jugak la su nak belajar nek basikal

mereka2 yang suke bergambo

baby comel & calon rumah angkat....^^

rumah terakhir sebelum CFCS berakhir... teh O and biskut marie!!!

ADAMAYA FEVER......^^

OK!!!!! I know that it's not the right time to be writing since my exam is just 2 weeks from now and being my usual self I haven't start even a tiny weeny bit on any chapter that's coming out on the exam BUT THIS IS HUGE & IMPORTANT FINDINGS!!!! I've starting to like MALAY DRAMA ONCE AGAIN!!!!!!! All thanks to ADAMAYA...... *standing ovation* and blame it on FB community yang memulakannya..... *cough cough*

I mean seriously, who wouldn't like that story anyway huh????? For once, the script was simple and not dramatic macam bunga tahi ayam. Straight forward like,

"saya suka awak, awak nak kahwin dengan saya tak????"

Yes, that straight!!! There's no need for flowery sentences that last for more then 5 minutes when in the end you just gonna spit out the 2 "heavenly words" = "marry me" crap. WASTING TIME IMMA TELLING YOU!!!! I never have any interest in ROMEO & JULIET like story yang skripnye merawang entah ke mana. I mean come on, why do you have to waste your precious saliva nak mengungkapkan kata-kata yang indah when lastly you hanya nak cakap I <3>

Some people says that it's romantic but for me, GOOSEBUMPS!!!! Hey can't blame me, I'm a straight forward person myself..... so yeah..... cakap tu biar terang..... ^^

Anyway, coming back to this drama, ADAM was played by SEIN yang tak pernah berlakon but he was amazing at being a husband at least in this drama. But I believe he's a good husband in real life too because according to some people, character yang kite pegang tu sebenarnya menggambarkan diri kite sebenar in reality especially if u r able to bring the character to life.....

Seriously, I would give anything to have SEIN character as my husband even if my parents were the 1 to choose that special person because I believe in my husband my pick. So yeah, he's that good in acting!! Penyabar tahap cipan!!! Totally husband material!!!

LISA SURIHANI starred as MAYA & I'm totally loving this girl. Preety....cute (?) but mostly because she's amazingly good in her acting. Totally the kind of girl that I like!! Well maybe after chopping off the part where she cheated on ADAM.....

Can't wait for the ending tomorrow!!!! T_T

CHUM CHUM !!!!

I think I did mention in 1 of my post that my PBL decided to eat out since the end of 2nd year is coming. Kononnye sebagai kenangan la.....Anyway, I don't know about the others but I enjoyed it since it's food!!!!! *my public enemy number 1*. The main dish was STEAMBOAT with processed seafood..... you know..... fish ball, ketam ball, cuttlefish ball and etc...etc..... I thought STEAMBOAT supposed to be frozen if not fresh seafood..... kan kan?????



Whatever....



Moving on......

Nie time baru sampai....PAE je yang cam "conscious" ^^



WEN LI, PAE MAR AND SUE dengan senyuman fresh & white mereka

Disturbing my PBL leader while my meja mate gi ambil food.

As usual, while everyone else were busy cooking, I was busy munching on the food.

My meja mate.... RO, MIRUL, ME & NANA

Seriously, the mee taste heavenly!!! well maybe because of the sauce.... but who cares!!! The mee was my main food of the night!!! All the other balls and meat got nothing on my MEE!!!!! <3>

Semua dah kekenyangan but since the policy said take all you want but once tak habis you need to pay for it thus semua pun terpaksa stuff sume dalam mulut walaupun perut dah nak explode.... =_=

OUR BIG HAPPY FAMILY!!!! PBL 16 Jjang!!!

Yes people, candid pix!!! blame MIRUL for this *I think* I looked hideous TT_TT

REVENGE!!!!! But they still looked decent.....TT_TT

Sooooo.... that's the end.... time balik I tried to "memotong" RAIMI's car but he potong balik in 5 secs!!!! gile laju mamat tu..... FYI I drove 90+km/h ok! *hope my mum won''t read this* All & all it was a fun night. I enjoyed myself, got to eat good food and gain a few kilos =_= but it's all worth it. Maybe next time we should plan for BBQ at the beach..... ^_^

3 KILOS???????!!!!!!!!

Today was the BEST day of my life!!!!! *sarcastic mode*

Today's plan was very sudden. Sudden here means......

"Su.... aq rase cam nak makan chicken rice kat chicken rice shop. Kite g KB Mall jom......"

" Nie dah kul 1.00, carilah kete sewa dulu....

calling IDA.....

"Ida ade no keta sewa tak???? aq ngan su nak kuar makan la..."

"aq pun nak kuar gak. Kite kuar skali pun ok gak..."

With that at 2.30p.m aku pun menapak lah ke MURNI dalam kehangatan mentari yang bisa menggelegakan otak.

Around 3.30p.m the 3 of us arrived at KB Mall and went to fullfil my crave for chicken rice. Then as usual, we went around the mall buying stuff.

HERE is main/climax part of my journey to the mall.

IDA : Jom timbang berat

SU & ME : OK

I don't know how to put this in words without having chest pain, hypertension, dizziness, irratation....

I GAINED 3 KILOS IN A MONTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M A BIG FAT HIPPO NOW...... NON OF CLOTH WOULD FIT ME NOW.

AND TO MAKE THING WORSE, DURING THE SHOPPING SPREE, I BOUGHT 2 NEW BLOUSE AND 1 OF IT IS SOMEWHAT ..............

WHATEVER!!!!! I'M ON DIET NOW!!!!

Before JUNE, I need to lose 5 kilos.... MUST, COMPULSARY and other words that fit the description

KEEP RUNNING Y'ALL

BIOSTAC

Just got back from class... tiring, boring......

Anyway, guess what did we learn today for CFCS Block????

........................

Since I know no one is guessing, so here's the answer

BIOSTATICS / GRAPH / CHART / NUMBERS / MATHEMATICS!!!!!!!

Amazing right???? After 2 years of 0 math education, today I was thrown straight on the face with it.... =_= . It's not that I hate math or anything it's just that I was never good with numbers and formulas. Seriously you don't need numbers to survive on this planet earth. All you need is a good brain to manipulate and to wrap people around your fingers. That's it. Fullstop!!

Another thing, you have to learn how to key in data. Well, I like that... so..... I don't mind since the computer do all the works for you!!!! But when it comes to learn how to count mode, mean, standard deviation and what not my head starts spinning.....like..... hmmmm... I've learn this somewhere..... right...... in Matriculation....... yes.... the subject that brought down my PNGK to 3.6 from 4.0. Yeah, I'm lovin every moment I spent studying it!!! =_+

But whatever the case is, I still have to study it since it's in the school curriculum but complaining makes it 10000 times better at understanding the subject!!!!

HUMAN NATURE = TOILET

Next 2 week I'm gonna have the first residency out of the 3 residency I'm going to have for CFCS. I was a bit skeptical about going around in an unknown village, making friends, and staying at people's houses for a week. Can I survive it???? Will I be able to fulfill the objectives that USM set for me????? After much contemplating, I decided that it will be just another week in PLKN where I'm gonna have some fun as well as new friends and family *missing PLKN*.

But of course, we human can go as far as planning things and the rest its god's work, 2 days ago the new head of CFCS said that we will be going to somewhere near to do our residency so we won't be staying in the village. It feels like I'm seeing JAY right in front of me, breathing the same air as me!!!! And hell yeah I wanna see him!!!!!

Yes I was that ecstatic. What was I thinking???? It will be another week in PLKN??? Staying in an unknown place, part tu samalah but in a god knows what condition, that's a different story. I've heard many stories from my senior like how the toilet in the village where they did their residency don't have any roof or how the door macam nak tercabut. That's no where near my stay in PLKN!!!

Fine, call me what you want but my kampung takde pun toilet camtu. rumah papan yes, but toilet kat dalam rumah and most importantly 100000000000000% selesa. Geeezzz don't you think toilet tu important ke???? We need some sort of ketenangan in order to release what need to be released. Pernah ke tengok orang yang ketakutan sempat lagi buat "bisnes" kat dalam toilet???? Constipated adela..... It's a normal human need and I'm a human, thus I need a proper toilet. Tempat tidur kat atas gunung pun tak pe but not toilet.

So yeah, I feel good now letting all of that feeling out because some people quote,

"Ala biasa la budak bandar, mana tau nak susah2 sikit. Semua nak selesa, nak terhidang depan mata"

Well ladies, sorry to break this to you I spend most of time kat my kampung ok??? So, yeah I'm more kampung than you are!!! :p

And of course, my newest addiction, JOJO by SHINee!!!! Love the fashion styles but most importantly the song!!!! fresh and the melody easy to follow.....

I miss good ol' times.....waaaa....!!!!! T_T

CLOUDS

WOW!!!! That's exactly what I thought when I 1st heard it.

The MV is very simple but the lyrics is very inspiring...... like that DEMI LOVATO song, the one she sang JB dude or like most of the SIMPLE PLAN songs. The kind that makes you think twice before surrendering your life to the life itself. Never back down even if people gives you shit *literally* and keep on moving with your head helds up high.

When asked about my favourite types of music, I can never really give a definite answer about a specific type of music maybe because I just <3 color="#ffcc00">motivational and inspiring lyrics accompanied by some good musics and of course beautiful voices and it can be from any genre.... I don't mind!!!!

To tell you the truth I was agitated while waiting for the song to be released on youtube by DUMBFOUNDEAD *he's genius with words* simply because JAY PARK was featured in the song but after repeating the song for 5 times I just realize there are more to life than JAY PARK * lolz*

Seriously, I have no idea who's DUMFOUNDEAD & CLARA C but right after listening to this song I have come to conclusion that I am stupid for not finding out about this 2 earlier.... *sigh* The CLARA girl, she got a very soothing voice, the kind that lullaby you to sleep... and JAY, I don't know.... He improved but sometimes his rapping is difficult to grasp by my poor ear. DUMBFOUNDEAD words was clear...... I supposed different people have different styles when spitting out their words of wisdom...... ANYWAY, thumbs up!!!!! Worth waiting!! ^o^

HERE IS CLOUDS by DFD ft. JAY PARK & CLARA C

AND A VERY HAPPY J-DAY!!!!!

EATING OUT 1

Amazingly, my PBL mates decided to say yes when I told them that we should eat out since we won't be seeing much of each other after our last PBL session on this THURSDAY!! I thought it would be difficult to convince them but I was totally wrong!!!

We'll be going to a place called 'FOOD VILLAGE' since everyone wanted to eat steamboat. It's a eat- till- your- tummy- burst kind of place. As for me I don't really know much about the place so let's just wait till I come back okie???? My friends are getting ready since we're going there at around 7.50. But most importantly is that I hope that the place is not full. I mean what kind of restaurant yang tak full ngan people right but eating dengan lautan manusia is not never the kind of dinner I imagine.

So yeah, Imma gonna go and pray and get ready for some food party!!!!

toddles!!!! ^^

APRIL

It's the 14th of April.......

No...

Nevermind!!! It's the 15th of April today....Seriously, I sucked at remembering date unless there is something worth remembering on the specific date. buat pe la nak menyemakkan kepala otak with things that doesn't mean anything to you..... RAM klu besar tak pe gak...

Anyway I supposed I just love APRIL because.....

1 . It's my B'day month!!! -10 APRIL 1989-

2 . I'm officially legal for my every action -21 lol-

3 . JAY, SICA, WOO's B'day month too!!!

4 . 22nd will be the long awaited 2PM single release date

5 . First announced that JAY will be coming back to Korea to film his first ever debut
movie HYPE NATION....

6 . The month I realized that I don't blame 2PM for the JAY fiasco and I'll still be supporting
them....

7 . I run out of reasons..... *lol* =_=

And yeah, JAY posted a new cover but I think the last one was better but for this 1 it was specially dedicated to his fans for being there for him......

So here's the cover... -CAN'T TAKE MY EYES OF YOU-

NOTHING ON YOU

OH MY FREAKING GOOOOOOOOOD!!!!!!!!!!!! THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE EVER *after getting into medical school*!!!!!!!

*clearing throat*

The most anticipated comeback *of the century I might add*!!!!! JAY PARK!!!!! woot! woot!. Yeah baby, you heard that right!!!! At araund 10 a.m waktu Malaysia he post his FIRST ever cover on B.O.B Nothing On You on his own YT account!!!!! how cool is that????? duuuhhh AWESOMELY COOL!!!!!

*COUGH COUGH*

I need to calm myself right now...... *breathe in & out* I'm just too ecstatic. I mean I have never expected him to make his comeback this early after all the ethical, morality craps but hey, there he is singing in the bathroom while sniffing & still thinking about his heartless bros * I think he did 2PM sign at 1.37*

without further a due, I present to you..... NOTHING ON YOU!!!!!!

*JAY self made rap*

i get approached a lot being who i am

and i gotta lot girls wishing i’m there man check it/

and if i’m wrong with ya i dont wanna be right

i gotcha gigglin like everydays a comedy night

i’m a correct answer never do you wrong

and i trust yah even though you’ve be gone/

but dont blame for getting little jealous/

its just hard when your talking to them fellaz

i got that “taylor” body girl you know that i gotcha/

you can call me new moon because i orbit around ya/

your my world my everything,

the only thing between our face is just that spaghetti string/

i’m faithful wont pull a kobe bryant on you/

its a jungle wont be “lion” pull a “tiger” on you

even know the exact shade of your eyes

my hearts ice your number one like yuna kim/

i used to be a boythat had many girls

all over the world

but they got nothing on you babe

its forever just you and me

for all of eternity/

i know your stressing but i’m confessing baby your the only girl i want

you can be my bestfriend we can play x-men

you can be just i can be cyclops

cause i dont wanna end up like everyone else

hurtin all alone all by myself

this is just something that i’ve never felt

RELATIONSHIP

People said that to turn love into hate is easier that to turn the hatred back into love...... well maybe it is true..... having to give your heart out to someone only to be betrayed in the end of the day is obviously not everyone's wish. It hurts to know that our pride can be thrown and stepped upon like some sort of cigaratte butt by someone we thought we knew.......

Heartbreak is the one situation that I would never want to experience even if I was given a cheque with a lot of zero on it.....I hate anything that got to do with sad love story. I hate complication. I want a simple, entertaining, yet a bittersweet sorts of relationship but NEVER a sad one. No, NEVER. I can't never accept someone who lied to me. That's a big no no...... I would most likely to let it go if you don't mean anything much to me *with some cursing* but once you earn my so-called-love you're DEAD!!!

I respect the relationship that I established with other human being so I expect the same from those human being. I want to 'preserved' the relationship I have till the day I die and make good memories of it thus, I would not appreciate it if someone wants to turn it into nightmare for me.

I'm not the kind of people who clicked instantly after exchanging a few words. I'll feel awkard if someone just simply start talking to me as if they know for years even with good intention. I take my time to build my trust in people. That's why I have a VERY small circle of friends. I don't care if you have a million of friends on your facebook, myspace, friendster and what not because I know, you don't know most of them. To me, it's a matter of taking your time to learn about those people who wants to be your friends even if at the end of the day you only managed to make 1 friend rather than making a million friend and know nothing about them.

P/S :

the phrase ' berkawan biar beribu bercinta biar kepada yang satu'. I never believe in that bull shit. Sama je bende tu.......Kalau kawan berjuta tapi satu pun tak leh pakai pun tak guna gak kan???? same cam bercinta gak, kalau yang 1 pun cam hampeh baik pasang berjuta tp menyenangkan hati or better yet cuci je mata tu dulu. Jangan awal sangat nak bagi komitmen!!!

LIVE YOUR LIFE TO THE FULLEST PEOPLE!!!!

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BEBELAN

argghhhh!!!!!

Again with rasa tak puas hati........ cam tak kenal lak.......

I should be spending the time I'm writing this entry to find info traditional medicine but of course I rather spend it by membebel dalam blog ku ini......

You see, I thought it would be easy for me to find the info but hah!! takde langsung!! dalam Bahasa Malaysia that is. English melambak tapi takkan nak translate semuanye!!! Hangus neuron cell aku!!!

Anyway, nothing else to write..... saje nak menambah post sambil membuang masa sebab sakit hati tak jumpa ape yang ingin dicari.....Plus, Dr. said I have osteoarthritis. Kalau tak tau, go and google it yourself. Not in the mood nak jadi dictionary....... +_-

On a brighter note, my study mood finally came back from her vacation!!!!! woot! woot!!Hell yeah, she's back people & I hope she's staying for good!!! hahaha ^_^

Since I'm in the mood, I'm gonna post up some pix.......

kekeke.... random gile..... Neway, hopes he's doing fine!!!